Spirits are low

It's hard to believe that just a few months ago things were peachy. I was getting paid and flying and meeting new people. Everything has been taken away now. Spirits are very low here in Anchorage. I am now the last person on the seniority list for the FOs. All of my friends from here have been let go. It is not looking good. I am torn between just toughing it out and just giving up and moving home. I have been looking at other opportunities both here and elsewhere but no luck yet. One of my friends that was let go has gotten an awesome opportunity back in his home town. I am super happy for him and I wish there was another spot for me! Maybe just in a few months I might be able to get on there. You never know. I just wish things would work themselves out and get my time in here. I also need to worry about my final License which could cost me 3,000 dollars if I don't find a company that is willing to invest in me. Plus when I think about my current situation, I am 2500 miles from home with no family or friends here and I am making peanuts for money. Im ok with starting low and working my way up but shit. If I am going to suffer I would prefer it be with family and friends nearby. Instead I need two jobs and have no friends! Haha. I am hoping this doesn't last long and I find something more stable to support myself and my loans. Going to take dozer to run! Talk to everyone soon!